Since the time I became "officially" a knife afi, I have lost four that I can think of.
1) Minimalist Wharncliffe. I to this day have no idea how I lost it, but I am pretty sure it failed to make it back to Canada with me after a trip to the USA quite a few years back.
2) Tom Krein Pocket Bowie. The circumstances around this one were such that I truly deserved to lose the knife, as I was still engaged in a bad life that I have since left behind.
3) Cold Steel Tuff Lite. I was foolish enough to put it into the breast pocket of a shirt I was wearing during a job that involved a lot bending and lifting in a barn. 'Nuff said.
4) Spyderco Resilience. This one was very annoying. I had modified a Resilience to have a straight spine like the Military, reground it thin behind the edge, skeletonized the liners and dropped the overall weight to the same as a factory Military (4.4 oz), and added a deep carry clip. I carried it to work at my previous job regularly, and one day at work, I suddenly noticed it was not in my pocket. To this day I don't know what happened to it. I bought about three more Resiliences since then, and still own four of them, including one that I have modded back to the same configuration as the one I had lost.
4.1) Honorable mention goes to my Laguiole, which wasn't technically lost, but I was silly enough to give it to someone who told me that he would never use it and it would just sit in a drawer collecting dust.
Today I received a package in the mail from
@oldmanwilly , who had heard me mention having lost one of these knives before, and to my delight, here is what was in the package:
I had forgotten what a beautiful and classy little knife this is.
THANK YOU WILL!
Finally, Will did not know the circumstances surrounding the loss of the knife, and so the fact that he has sent me this knife in particular, I take as a sign that no matter what chains we allow to bind ourselves, if we sincerely try to change, then we can still gain forgiveness for the hurts we have caused, and thus we should forgive ourselves too and keep moving forward.