fishface5
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My beloved cat of 12 years had sinus cancer. I kept him going on meds for way longer than the vet expected, but yesterday it was time. For a bunch of reasons I couldn't do it through a vet. So I drugged him and then shot him with a 22 while he was basking in the sun.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS! First of all I didn't get him in the brain stem so it wasn't instantaneous. A very upsetting couple of seconds although I doubt he felt much pain. But what I wasn't expecting was the emotional complications. He hated strangers so I thought a quick unseen kill by me would be better for him, and no vet was easily available. I didn't feel bad until after pulling the trigger, because now instead of missing the cat I loved, and cherishing our lost bond, I feel like his betrayer and executioner. The rational reasons for what I did don't have any emotional power after the fact. I had no idea how awful I would feel. . .
Anyway just putting this out there for anyone who finds themselves in the same situation. It really really sucks.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS! First of all I didn't get him in the brain stem so it wasn't instantaneous. A very upsetting couple of seconds although I doubt he felt much pain. But what I wasn't expecting was the emotional complications. He hated strangers so I thought a quick unseen kill by me would be better for him, and no vet was easily available. I didn't feel bad until after pulling the trigger, because now instead of missing the cat I loved, and cherishing our lost bond, I feel like his betrayer and executioner. The rational reasons for what I did don't have any emotional power after the fact. I had no idea how awful I would feel. . .
Anyway just putting this out there for anyone who finds themselves in the same situation. It really really sucks.