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Man, I've had some really hard days in my life, and I've weathered some bad times, but today far surpassed everything..... I've tried to post this so many times today but just couldn't make it thorough it without breaking down... This is long, and I'm sorry for that, but if you have a dog that's not just a dog, you understand...
My best friend (other than my wife), my confidant, my steadfast companion of almost 11 years passed away early this morning. I'm referring to my German Shorthaired Pointer, Annie.
I think at this point, I've cried almost all the tears I can, and I feel like I can make it through this...
A couple of days ago I noticed that she wasn't feeling too hot, so I kept an eye on her... She started weakening, and I thought she just ate something over at the in-laws place that made her have an upset stomach.. By late Sunday night I knew it was getting really bad, and I didn't think she would make it until the morning...
At that point, I thought it was her heart b/c a year and a half ago she had heart-worms and we got that solved, but never knew if they had done comprehensive damage....
I called the vet, and he was gone until Monday morning, so I did what I always said I'd do if I knew she was at her end... I carried her into our room and let her sleep in the bed with me one last time... I figured I'd wake up and she wouldn't but at least she'd be there with me... I talked to her for a while, and I knew that the recent health problems had taken a lot out of her. I simply told her, "you've done all I could ask, and you made it to see my son come home and get to nearly 7 months old. Do what's right for you for once Annie, and if you don't want to fight any more, it's ok to go."
Of course, I didn't sleep at all.... She made it until the morning, and seemed a little better... A couple of hours later I saw her spotting blood and I rushed her to the vet....
My wife had to go out of town (Monday) overnight, so I called her to let her know what was going on... The vet called me back (around 7 p.m.) and let me know the prognosis... She had a auto immune problem that stemmed back to the heartworms and it had been present for a good while now (we didn't know that), but something kicked it into overdrive... It was setting course for massive systemic failure...
The vet felt confident that she could be treated, but I knew that I had held my pooch for the last time while she still had breath in her... I didn't sleep again last night and I wished that I'd brought her home with me so she could be here when it happened, but I wanted her to be comfortable, and if there was any chance of healing her I thought it was worth taking...
I know it sounds weird, but around 7:00 this morning, I knew she was gone. Around 8:00 the vet called and told me the news and I told him that I already knew b/c I just felt it around 7:00.... He said that she wasn't hurting, and she did indeed pass at 7:04 a.m. They had video, so he rolled it back to see what her night was like.
She was tired and had fought off as much as she could, and it was very rapid... I'm comforted by the fact that she wasn't in pain, and it wasn't a drawn out ordeal.
I spent the rest of the day trying to get enough composure to go get her so I could lay her to rest.... I called my wife to let her know and she was devastated... I waited to go get Annie until Chel got home and we went up there and picked her up. That was one of the toughest things I've ever had to do.
She was in a plastic bag (standard procedure) and I told myself that it was simply too unfitting to leave her in there, so I'd remove her and bury her properly... I just couldn't do it though, I couldn't see her like that, so I got her home and I sat with her for a while and talked to her. That was really, really hard to do... My other dog knew what was going on, and she sat by our gate and whined at my truck bed (where Annie's body was) for some time....
This evening Chel and I picked a spot in our flower garden and we buried her there. She's within a stone's throw of our house, yard and my shop, and that's how I wanted it and I'd suspect she would too...
I've got plans to put in a rock base and a fountain above her with a bench nearby... That may seem somewhat strange or morbid, but I've shared everything with her for over a decade and I still need to know she's there for me to talk to...
I will miss her every day, and she enriched my life in so many ways... She made a million different moves with me, rode a lot of miles, was there when we came home college grads, was there when Chel and I came home newlyweds, was home with a wagging tail when we brought home our first born, Hudson..
I just pray I did right by her, and I know that God got a really good dog today/yesterday. I'm as sad as I've ever been right now, and I've cried so much I think I may be out of tears, but I'm sure over the next few days I'll find more. I knew this day would come, and I feel blessed for having her be such a large part of our lives... I keep finding myself holding her collar and going out to her spot (we have a layer of bricks on top of it right now) and just sitting and reflecting. I went for a drive, which was theraputic, but I came home to her not greeting me, and that hurt, a lot...
I'm really sorry for giving every detail, but I owe her that much and a lot more.. I'm glad I was here when it happened, and not at Blade. Therein lies another problem, I haven't been in the shop for a couple of days, and my heart and attention lies elsewhere right now, so I'm going to really have to find a way to make it though this to get things done for the show... Please forgive me if I don't show up in Atlanta with the usual bevy of blades, but right now it's going to be a task to reach the finish line....
Thanks all, and rest in peace Annie, you are missed....
Sincerely,
Mark Terrell
My best friend (other than my wife), my confidant, my steadfast companion of almost 11 years passed away early this morning. I'm referring to my German Shorthaired Pointer, Annie.
I think at this point, I've cried almost all the tears I can, and I feel like I can make it through this...
A couple of days ago I noticed that she wasn't feeling too hot, so I kept an eye on her... She started weakening, and I thought she just ate something over at the in-laws place that made her have an upset stomach.. By late Sunday night I knew it was getting really bad, and I didn't think she would make it until the morning...
At that point, I thought it was her heart b/c a year and a half ago she had heart-worms and we got that solved, but never knew if they had done comprehensive damage....
I called the vet, and he was gone until Monday morning, so I did what I always said I'd do if I knew she was at her end... I carried her into our room and let her sleep in the bed with me one last time... I figured I'd wake up and she wouldn't but at least she'd be there with me... I talked to her for a while, and I knew that the recent health problems had taken a lot out of her. I simply told her, "you've done all I could ask, and you made it to see my son come home and get to nearly 7 months old. Do what's right for you for once Annie, and if you don't want to fight any more, it's ok to go."
Of course, I didn't sleep at all.... She made it until the morning, and seemed a little better... A couple of hours later I saw her spotting blood and I rushed her to the vet....
My wife had to go out of town (Monday) overnight, so I called her to let her know what was going on... The vet called me back (around 7 p.m.) and let me know the prognosis... She had a auto immune problem that stemmed back to the heartworms and it had been present for a good while now (we didn't know that), but something kicked it into overdrive... It was setting course for massive systemic failure...
The vet felt confident that she could be treated, but I knew that I had held my pooch for the last time while she still had breath in her... I didn't sleep again last night and I wished that I'd brought her home with me so she could be here when it happened, but I wanted her to be comfortable, and if there was any chance of healing her I thought it was worth taking...
I know it sounds weird, but around 7:00 this morning, I knew she was gone. Around 8:00 the vet called and told me the news and I told him that I already knew b/c I just felt it around 7:00.... He said that she wasn't hurting, and she did indeed pass at 7:04 a.m. They had video, so he rolled it back to see what her night was like.
She was tired and had fought off as much as she could, and it was very rapid... I'm comforted by the fact that she wasn't in pain, and it wasn't a drawn out ordeal.
I spent the rest of the day trying to get enough composure to go get her so I could lay her to rest.... I called my wife to let her know and she was devastated... I waited to go get Annie until Chel got home and we went up there and picked her up. That was one of the toughest things I've ever had to do.
She was in a plastic bag (standard procedure) and I told myself that it was simply too unfitting to leave her in there, so I'd remove her and bury her properly... I just couldn't do it though, I couldn't see her like that, so I got her home and I sat with her for a while and talked to her. That was really, really hard to do... My other dog knew what was going on, and she sat by our gate and whined at my truck bed (where Annie's body was) for some time....
This evening Chel and I picked a spot in our flower garden and we buried her there. She's within a stone's throw of our house, yard and my shop, and that's how I wanted it and I'd suspect she would too...
I've got plans to put in a rock base and a fountain above her with a bench nearby... That may seem somewhat strange or morbid, but I've shared everything with her for over a decade and I still need to know she's there for me to talk to...
I will miss her every day, and she enriched my life in so many ways... She made a million different moves with me, rode a lot of miles, was there when we came home college grads, was there when Chel and I came home newlyweds, was home with a wagging tail when we brought home our first born, Hudson..
I just pray I did right by her, and I know that God got a really good dog today/yesterday. I'm as sad as I've ever been right now, and I've cried so much I think I may be out of tears, but I'm sure over the next few days I'll find more. I knew this day would come, and I feel blessed for having her be such a large part of our lives... I keep finding myself holding her collar and going out to her spot (we have a layer of bricks on top of it right now) and just sitting and reflecting. I went for a drive, which was theraputic, but I came home to her not greeting me, and that hurt, a lot...
I'm really sorry for giving every detail, but I owe her that much and a lot more.. I'm glad I was here when it happened, and not at Blade. Therein lies another problem, I haven't been in the shop for a couple of days, and my heart and attention lies elsewhere right now, so I'm going to really have to find a way to make it though this to get things done for the show... Please forgive me if I don't show up in Atlanta with the usual bevy of blades, but right now it's going to be a task to reach the finish line....
Thanks all, and rest in peace Annie, you are missed....
Sincerely,
Mark Terrell