I don't recognize much of Cal anymore, even Shasta County has changed. (it's still pretty neat.) Your story is as bad as they come..unless of course the guy had kids and would do that to them. "Daddy blew his kidney out today."
I worked in a hospital as a nurse for a long time. An illegal alien got his foot caught by a train wheel. The bones and tendons were still there, but all the flesh on the top side was missing. Like an erector set foot, or that possum we see posted in another thread.
I didn't feel sorry for him. He had a 'screw you all' attitude, he'd sneak smokes even though he had a collasped lung, which would collaspe it fresh and create more medical procedures, and was happy to see the bills paid in full.
I've seen a few succesful suicides and what it did to the parents.
ONly pulled a gun once in my life, Pappy. Didn't have to fire. Iwent outside to see what went 'thunk'. "Don't shoot, Mister." It said.
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