I think there's something wrong with me

Wow. I didn't realize it'd been nearly a week since I last posted here. Time really gets away from you if you aren't paying attention. Sorry about that folks.

tinfoil hat timmy said:
WHAT do you eat?
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If it's all the same, Tim, I'd rather not get too detailed into that particular subject. My digestive system is weird, really intolerant of a lot of stuff, and there's only a limited selection of foods I actually can eat without horrible indigestion or other problems arising. I know my diet isn't the healthiest out there, but it's the healthiest diet I can actually manage based on my situation. And I know if I go into detail about the specifics, there's going to be armchair health experts telling me this, that, and the other thing about what I need to cut out for one reason or another. And I really don't need to chance developing a psychosomatic response from my stomach at reading about how bad one of my foods might be.

It sounds stupid. It is stupid. But it's the situation I find myself in.

Well, when you laugh, why do you laugh? How often.

Laughter is the best medicine
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How often I laugh is hard to tell. Some days it's quite often, some days next to none at all. It all depends on various circumstances.
 
Charlie_K said:
Wow. I didn't realize it'd been nearly a week since I last posted here. Time really gets away from you if you aren't paying attention. Sorry about that folks.



If it's all the same, Tim, I'd rather not get too detailed into that particular subject. My digestive system is weird, really intolerant of a lot of stuff, and there's only a limited selection of foods I actually can eat without horrible indigestion or other problems arising. I know my diet isn't the healthiest out there, but it's the healthiest diet I can actually manage based on my situation. And I know if I go into detail about the specifics, there's going to be armchair health experts telling me this, that, and the other thing about what I need to cut out for one reason or another. And I really don't need to chance developing a psychosomatic response from my stomach at reading about how bad one of my foods might be.

It sounds stupid. It is stupid. But it's the situation I find myself in.



How often I laugh is hard to tell. Some days it's quite often, some days next to none at all. It all depends on various circumstances.
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There was a WW2 Navy vet I read about that had some stomach issues, that the only thing he could eat without puking was Baloney sandwiches. He live to his late 80s. Eat what works for you & be happy!:thumbsup:
 
I certainly didn't mean to pry. I just think that my own diet has been cleaner in the not so distant past, and when it was I felt a bit better than I do now. Based on your response, it seems you've examined what you're eating and that's awesome. Whatever works.

I personally dont laugh enough. When I want to laugh I watch NASA footage in 2x speed. Or i listen to the Big Bear.

Anyhow. I hope things go well in the future for you.
 
During Lent I'm required to eat only one meal a day, and no meat that didn't come from the sea. For those forty days I eat the same basic meal every day, with slight variations on the vegetables. Salmon, cooked a pan with coconut oil, and the veggies, usually something like broccoli, sweet potatoes, onions, ginger, garlic, peas, brussel sprouts, etc., once all those are sauteed in coconut oil, I put them into two flat bread wraps with some lettuce, avocado and Frank's Red Hot, and down the hatch they go. That meal each day makes me feel like Superman. It usually takes a good couple of months after Easter before I finally slide back into eating more than a couple meals a day and eating bacon and beef again. And sure enough, some of the aches come back that were only a memory after the first week of Lent.
 
This may sound like a silly suggestion, but do you have a Daisy BB gun? I'm a lifelong shooter, and I've found that just getting out in the back yard with the ole BB gun can bring me nearly as much enjoyment as getting out to the range. It's the act of shooting for me, no bangs necessary. No need to travel, no ammo cost, and no cleanup. In fact, sometimes when I'm particularly stressed, I just step out the back door and pop the centers out of a few wildflowers. It puts me in the same zen-like state I get from shooting and brings me back to the childhood comfort I felt wandering the woods and cow pastures with my BB gun as a kid.

As for the deeper motivational issue, I have felt this at times with my interests as well, even with things I love like hiking. My only advice is to force yourself up and out. I have done this on many occasions and never have I regretted it at the end of the day. I'm always ever so glad that I got out and I have even experienced some of my best and most memorable outings on such days.
 
Knives&Lint said:
This may sound like a silly suggestion, but do you have a Daisy BB gun? I'm a lifelong shooter, and I've found that just getting out in the back yard with the ole BB gun can bring me nearly as much enjoyment as getting out to the range. It's the act of shooting for me, no bangs necessary. No need to travel, no ammo cost, and no cleanup. In fact, sometimes when I'm particularly stressed, I just step out the back door and pop the centers out of a few wildflowers. It puts me in the same zen-like state I get from shooting and brings me back to the childhood comfort I felt wandering the woods and cow pastures with my BB gun as a kid.
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As a matter of fact I do. It's a Powerline 880 that I got in a thrift shop some years ago for $5. But I haven't been able to use it much because the town has a strict no discharge ordinance that even covers pellet guns.

As for the deeper motivational issue, I have felt this at times with my interests as well, even with things I love like hiking. My only advice is to force yourself up and out. I have done this on many occasions and never have I regretted it at the end of the day. I'm always ever so glad that I got out and I have even experienced some of my best and most memorable outings on such days.
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I've contemplated doing just that so many times. But with the ammo shortage being what it is, even the thought of going out and doing just that makes me feel guilty. I feel like I'm wasting a valuable resource that needs to be conserved at all costs.
 
Your story sounds familiar, i was in the same situation a couple of years back.
Take a simple gun, clean it, fondle it. Grab your rangebag and just go!
Sitting on the couch doesn’t bring you shit!
Just do it, you’ll see you’ll start to enjoy it again.
Just some easy bullseye shooting, shot for shot. Try to relax, forget about things, empty your mind. Just you and that perfect shot.
But whatever you do, don’t stay on the couch!
Do it and enjoy, with the sun in your face!
 
bigfish said:
Your story sounds familiar, i was in the same situation a couple of years back.
Take a simple gun, clean it, fondle it. Grab your rangebag and just go!
Sitting on the couch doesn’t bring you shit!
Just do it, you’ll see you’ll start to enjoy it again.
Just some easy bullseye shooting, shot for shot. Try to relax, forget about things, empty your mind. Just you and that perfect shot.
But whatever you do, don’t stay on the couch!
Do it and enjoy, with the sun in your face!
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Gave it a try over the weekend, BF, and was met with failure. The land we go to shoot on suffered 4 inches of rain and was inaccessible. And even if that hadn't happened, we just kept getting one work call after another, making it impossible to get any shooting done because customers need to be served. Bringing the grand total up to 66 consecutive weeks of failure to get out and get any shooting done due to real life having other plans for everyone involved.
 
C Charlie_K I don’t want to discourage you from trying to get out to a range or outdoors period but couldn’t you shoot your BB gun indoors? I know there are many bb/pellet traps available. Also in another recent thread blowguns were brought up, I had one years ago and decided to buy another, man those things are fun. Indoors or outdoors.
 
Well Charlie maybe this cheers you up and help put things is perspective; June last year I was hospitalized for excruciating pain in my abdomen. I had a piece of colon that was heavily infected and had to be cut out. Operation was done and was send home after a couple of days.....2 days later a got a terrible fever and blood gushed out of my anus. With the ambulance to the hospital...after a CT scan it was clear the colon came loose, And my feaces ended up in my belly. I had only a few hours to live....
Had a surgery in the middle of the night where at a moment I had flatline and they had to bring me back with a defibrillator.
Finally I ended up with a stomabag and a gigantic open wound, which had to close by itself. For weeks pus and blood gushed out of the wound in order to allow the body to clean up the dirt inside. I spent 6 weeks on I.C. and another 5 weeks on medium care.
Finally i was sent home with a special Vac pump to close the wound. Couldn’t walk, couldn’t sit, only could lay flat on a bed. I had to pee in a bottle which my wife had to hold for me.
Now we are a year later, still can only walk about 25 meters before i’m totally wrecked and have to sit down. Waiting for 2 more surgeries in the near future to (hopefully) get back to normal. I’m a father of 2 daughters, 42 years old.
And since the time i got ill last year februari, I haven’t fired a single round.
So please, cut the wining, there’s always someone in a far more shitty situation.
Grab your gun and go shooting.
 
Hey, how ‘bout it!

By now you’re seeing the patterns in these responses. First off, you just gotta get out there.

You just gotta get out there (literally or figuratively) to do things that bring you joy. Shit, I’ve been tired for almost two decades. And Covid has rattled everyone’s cage, mine included. This house has had some ups and downs (in hindsight beneficial ups and downs) since March 11th 2020. And for a lot of folks, they’re having to honestly face both internal and external pests for the first time ever. Many are doing it alone - and they don’t know for how long they’ll have to do it.

But adapt. It’s what humans are best at, though some do it quicker than others. And you need to clear those lines. Focus on little things that will improve your mood and possibly get your blood moving. Take better care of yourself. Although I don’t drink every day, I do like to drink and I can put away a lot and still be a smooth operator. I’m also a night owl. I also like coffee. All too often some days consist(ed) of drinking a lot of coffee in the AM and after punching out, helping the kids and wife around, getting them to bed, I’d stay stay up late for “me time” putting away a bottle or two and repeating that cycle. This makes for terrible sleep, amongst other things. Approaching forty, it started to catch up with me (affecting my baseline mood) so over the past year I’ve cut back big time, gotten back into shape, and the storm clouds have significantly dissipated.

Do physical things. And yes that includes going for a walk at least every other day. You have time after dinner for a twenty minute walk. That’s right I’m taking about being sure to get your walks in. Back in May we put up a basketball hoop in the drive for our kiddos, it’s adjustable but it’s legit. I’ve never liked or even tried to play basketball since high school. Over the past four months I started taking short breaks throughout the day to shoot hoops. Now I use it more than my kids, I’m bugging them to get out and use it with me, and I even shoot hoops after the sun goes down. It’s a great stress reliever, gets my ass moving a bit more, I’m actually enjoying it, and I’m not bad. Now, I believe what I just typed about the basketball hoop sounds silly. Yet doing something like that now brings me joy in multiple ways. Getting a basketball hoop isn’t your answer, you get that. The takeaway is to change it up, snowball some little successes and joys, but also get outside your comfort zone. For me it was finding small pleasures in something I thought I disliked. For me it’s been kayaking more often. For me it was getting hooked on peloton cycling. For me it’s been taking better care of myself and thus those around me. But it starts with just getting out there and doing it. Whatever IT might be for you. Maybe once a week or maybe once a month. Build up to doing the things you enjoy doing more and more often. Focus on little victories and the successes of those things. The small things add up. And fuck it, if you get low for a bit, get low, but at some point make a change or two. If you feel like shit, get moving. Plus, drink less and remember that winter is coming and that’s when the blues will really set in :eek:

Watch actual funny animal videos, watch people falling down videos (not the violent ones), start listening to favorite music you haven’t listened to in a long time, listen to Howard Stern, build or create something, binge watch new/old shows or movies, get some B12 and vitamin D, lay off shitty drinks and food, and do more of anything that improves your mood, even dumb stuff, regardless of duration. My wife got me adult coloring books last Christmas. They’re dirty and hilarious. Sometimes when I’m stressed I COLOR THEM! And it helps.

I was cleaning out a dresser today and found a few hundred rounds of American Eagle 9mm and 12g shells. You got me in the mood to shoot this weekend. Even if I only empty a few clips. Thank you for doing that!
 
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Charlie_K said:
And then around comes the weekend, and when the opportunity to do just that is perfect I find myself not in the mood to actually do it, and unable to muster the interest to even leave the house. It's as if I have no life left in me because I spent everything during the work week, leaving nothing but a withered husk for the weekend.
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I have the same problem, but it's caused by work. I have to work all during the week for my job, then I have to work all during the week for my wife's home improvement projects which suck up any mental and physical energy I have left after my job, so in the rare instances when I do have a few minutes to indulge in a fun activity for myself, I can't do it.

Thinking about activities all the time is natural, no matter what the activity is. If it is an activity that you like then you can be passionate about it. People do it with all manner of sports and hobbies. I've gotten involved in various hobbies and for a time all I can think about is that hobby. Then later I move on to another hobby. Paraphrasing Robert Deniro in "Untouchables"... "A man has to have enthusiasms...".
 
Charlie, I used to be a fishing fool. 5 or 6 days a week. All year. When I turned 45 I started tapering off. My pop was 93 at the time and asked me "You getting to old?" Half kidding, half serious. In my late 50s, I'm now 64, I was in that same boat. Thinking about fishing all day at work but when Friday night rolled around I didn't have the umph to load the car and set the alarm for oh dark thirty. Although, we'd spend 2 weeks on the beach at Montauk and I'd fish every morning and every night that the weather allowed. The mindset is different cuz I'm looking forward to the trip all year and there are no other responsibilities to grind me down.
But, it's not an age thing. It's a tired thing. Sometimes you get so dang worn out, physically and mentally, that the drive isn't there. Especially something that you've done a lot. Something that the "new" has been rubbed off.
It's OK.
Something else will come along and get your attention and light that fire again.
For me it was pool. I found a poolroom in the neighborhood that I could walk to, great bunch of people. Now I have a new passion.
Well, that it until the plague hit.

The only constant is change.
Hang in there, keep your mind open to new endeavors.
 
David Mary said:
During Lent I'm required to eat only one meal a day, and no meat that didn't come from the sea. For those forty days I eat the same basic meal every day, with slight variations on the vegetables. Salmon, cooked a pan with coconut oil, and the veggies, usually something like broccoli, sweet potatoes, onions, ginger, garlic, peas, brussel sprouts, etc., once all those are sauteed in coconut oil, I put them into two flat bread wraps with some lettuce, avocado and Frank's Red Hot, and down the hatch they go. That meal each day makes me feel like Superman. It usually takes a good couple of months after Easter before I finally slide back into eating more than a couple meals a day and eating bacon and beef again. And sure enough, some of the aches come back that were only a memory after the first week of Lent.
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Reading this made me think about how good Starkist's Yellow Fin Tuna EVOO and Garlic "IS" in the CAN ~ Makes a Good Sandwich ~ Just a week or so ago I was Pondering the Food that would of been on the Table at the Last Supper so I looked it up and of it was KOSHER and come to find out I have been eating it by a Different Name ~ Being Italian my Mother Uses Beef or Pork ~ Slow Cooker Stew ~ { CALLED "CHOLENT" } ~ {Pork would not be Considered Kosher} "Noted"

A bean stew, lamb, olives, bitter herbs, a fish sauce, unleavened bread, dates and aromatized wine likely were on the menu at the Last Supper, says recent research into Palestinian cuisine during Jesus's time.



The food wasn't eaten during a formal seated gathering at a rectangular table, as shown in many religious art paintings, but with Jesus and his apostles reclining on floor cushions, as the Romans did at that time.


The study by two Italian archaeologists relied on Bible verses, Jewish writings, ancient Roman works and archaeological data to investigate the eating habits in Jerusalem at the beginning of the 1st century A.D.

What Was Eaten at the Last Supper?

Giacomo Raffaelli
Dan Myers | April 14, 2017, 12:48 pm EST
The Last Supper, eaten by Jesus and his Apostles shortly before Jesus' betrayal and subsequent crucifixion, has gone down in history as quite possibly the most famous meal of all time. But what was actually eaten during the meal?


There's a belief that the Last Supper was a traditional Passover Seder, but whether this is actually the case remains unknown. In fact, there are only two things we know for certain were served during the meal, according to scriptures: unleavened bread and wine. (This combination is actually the origin of the Christian ritual of Communion, as Jesus told his Apostles that the wine represented his blood and the bread his body as these foods were passed around.)

Beyond that, we sadly have only conjecture. Staples like olive oil and honey have always been plentiful in the region, so those were most likely on the table. Dried figs were probably present too — it would have been too early in the season for fresh fruit. Lamb most likely wasn't served, as the meal was held before the annual ritual sacrifice of the lambs. The only other indication as to what might have been on the table comes from a 2015 report from a group of Italian archaeologists, who determined that if the meal had indeed taken place during Passover, it would have included "cholent, a stewed dish of beans cooked very low and slow; olives with hyssop, an herb with a mint-like taste; bitter herbs with pistachios; and a date charoset, a chunky fruit and nut paste."
 
Charlie_K said:
Depression takes many forms for many people. How do you know where depression stops and physical exhaustion from hard work starts? How do you know if it's depression if there are still things you can and do enjoy doing?
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Winter blahs. Get one of those lights for that, my mom did that and it helped a lot. Seasonal disorder.
 
Charlie_K said:
Well fortunately I don't have that excuse.
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Sorry to hear this, porn is a terrible vice and downright diabolical and disgusting, this vice destroys women and men's virtue, integrity, morals, and dignity ~ anything that uses up a person ~ hope you break free from your bondage ~ this might have something to do with your depression problem ~ same as a drug addict or alcoholic ~ always looking for that next high to get the dopamine firing in the brain ~ causes highs and lows ~ never understood prostitution either ~ very degrading and gross ~ unfortunately many people are exploited into these cesspools ~


 
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