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I've thoroughly enjoyed reading the many stories in this thread and would like to thank those who have shared their experiences with the rest of us. Not only are such tales entertaining; they give me pause for thought as I reflect upon my own experiences throughout life.
With that in mind I'll share one of my more easily explained experiences. While it is largely dissimilar to most of the stories told thus far, the unknown sense that I believe we all have does play a roll in this particular story. I have other, less explainable, experiences as well, but for now I'll leave them for another day. (I have my reasons for that some of which have to do with responses that were less than polite, and extremely judgmental, in light of the fact that the respondents had absolutely no basis for the assumptions (they) made.)
The first 14 years of my life were spent living on a farm; with my remaining childhood years spent living in a very small town still dominated by farming. In fact I still worked on a farm, while living in town, and was every bit the typical farm kid growing up in the mid-west.
In my later twenties I received an ultimatum from the woman I was living with: move, with her, to New Jersey or she'd move without me. Like a fool I chose to move with her; despite the fact that I had no job prospects and knew absolutely nobody in New Jersey.
Luck was on my side though, as my experience in the beverage industry landed a job as the regional manager for a fairly large soft drink manufacturer/distributor. The company had its own proprietary brands, as well as multiple contracted brands (primarily from Caribbean nations) that allowed us to do a very brisk business in the various inner-city areas.
To that point in time I had never been in an inner-city area, let alone spending considerable amounts of time working in such areas.
I was cautious and more than a bit appalled by what I routinely saw while working in those areas, but naive enough to have no fear while working areas that very much reminded me of hell - after it had been through a major bombing campaign.
My company car looked every bit the unmarked police vehicle and I found great amusement in the fact that the locals would frequently take off running, while yelling 5-O, when I pulled up to the corner bodega and got out of my car. Many of my employees thought I was nuts and told me that I had a death wish that I simply had no idea of how many times I was covered by multiple guns aimed my way, while talking business in a bodega that was nothing more than a front for drugs.
I laughed it all off and got used to the sidewalks covered in empty crack-viles, the crunching sound they made as I walked the sidewalks, the people mistaking me for a cop, and the numerous looks of sheer hatred that were frequently tossed my way. I was used to my drivers being paid with nothing but $5 bills (the going price for a vile of crack) and was accustomed to being the only white guy save the occasional cop in the area.
One day I asked one of my employees (he was from one of the areas we sold a lot of soft drinks) why nobody had bothered me, why people ran while yelling 5-O and why so many of the locals seemed to hate my guts. I had thought I was left alone because so many thought I was a cop. I was wrong. My employee explained that they ran, while yelling 5-O because they thought I was a cop and the locals hated me because they thought I was a cop, but being a cop wasn't what had prevented them from harming me. What had kept me from harm was a combination of my size, the fact that I was white and showed no fear making the locals unsure of what I was capable of and that I just looked mean. It also helped that I always wore cowboy boots something not really seen in those areas and that odd quirk, coupled with the rest, made them think I was dangerous.
The truth is that I was naive a country bumpkin out of place and too ignorant to understand how much danger I was in, or why.
The owner of the company asked me to work with the sales people in Brooklyn for several days. I wasn't too worried, at the time anyway, because the NY salespeople all seemed to think the areas in NJ (that I routinely worked in) were much worse than anything they had seen in New York, so I figured it wouldn't be too bad at all.
My salesman parked his car down the street and we walked to a little bodega that was a couple of doors down from the corner. Right in front of the bodega was a car with a man probably in his late 50's just sitting in the passenger seat. The day was beautiful, a warm late spring day, and I figured the guy was just enjoying the weather while the driver ran errands. Still, something seemed a bit off to me I just couldn't figure it out.
The area was called Bed-Sty not a nice place, but it didn't seem as bad as other areas I had been to. Besides, I was with my salesman this time, so it wasn't just some white guy out and about on his own.
We were nearly done with our sales call, up near the counter finalizing the last few details on the order.
The front door opened and I nearly laughed out loud.
There was a young boy probably 14 or so standing there wearing a ski-mask and holding, what I thought was, a toy gun that was pointed directly at me. He was scared. I don't know how I knew that, but I instinctively knew he was absolutely terrified. I'd say he was 15 feet from me and I don't think anyone else noticed him (two customers, the owner, or my salesman).
Suddenly the door opened again and in stepped another guy wearing a ski-mask. He too held a gun that was pointed directly at me. This one was older; probably in his late teens or early twenties and he wasn't scared at all.
He had done this before. I knew that instantly, but I can't say why I knew that. It was just obvious.
His gun was definitely real. I could plainly see the gaping hole and his finger tight on the trigger. I knew he intended to shoot me and probably everyone else.
The older guy walked up to me and put the barrel of his gun right on my temple, then told me to stop looking looking at them and to get down of the ground.
He asked me if I was a cop.
I told him that I wasn't.
He asked again, several times.
I kept telling him I wasn't.
He then told his partner to go through my pockets. I was face-down on the floor. The younger guy held his gun to the back of my head and began reaching in my left front pocket. He found nothing and began reaching in my left front pocket again.
The older guy asked me where my money was and if I had a gun.
I told him my money was in my right front pocket and that I did not have a gun
The younger guy went through my left front pocket again finding nothing.
The older guy asked in a more menacing tone (where is your money?)
I told him my other right front pocket.
The younger guy finally searched the right-front pocket and found my money. He took my money and was told to search the other people.
The older guy stood near my head and I assume he had his gun pointed at me, as he seemed very concerned with me.
Once the younger guy was done taking money from the others, the older guy told him to take the money from the register.
The older guy had me stand up an face away from him. His gun was pressed into the back of my head and he told the others to stay as they were. He then told me to walk slowly to the back room as he followed with the gun pressed into the back of my head.
I knew he was planning to kill me I could feel it in every fiber of my being.
The older robber wasn't scared, his gun didn't shake in the slightest. I got the picture that he was enjoying himself bossing a much stronger and much bigger man around.
I told myself that the pain would be immense and that I'd likely lose my sight immediately. I pictured his exact location in my mind and steadied myself to grab his throat so as to crush his windpipe and take him with me.
I felt no fear none whatsoever. There was some anger I'm sure, but the overwhelming emotion running through me was determination take him with me. I knew I'd have a second, maybe two, to lock my hand on his throat and crush it with all my might then it would be over and my pain would be gone.
I was in the back room; alone with the older robber and his gun was pressed tightly against the back of my head. I don't know how long it was like that; just him and I waiting for that moment when everything will change. It seemed like a long time, but it probably wasn't.
My thoughts were more clear than they've ever been. I could hear everything the ticking of some clock, his breathing, the traffic outside. I could feel the blood pumping through my body, my muscles tensing for action.
I heard a woman sobbing softly, then steps coming nearer to the back room
The younger kid's voice told the others to get inside the back room and the older guy moved his gun away from my head. I saw him grab the phone cord and slash down with his gun in an effort to break the cord. He did this several times without success.
I know then that we were going to live.
I offered to break the phone cord for him, so they'd leave before they changed their minds again. I grabbed the cord and easily broke it with my hands I saw the look of surprise in the older guy's eyes and then he left, telling us not to come out until they were gone.
The woman was crying hard as she begged me, in broken English, not to leave the backroom. She was afraid that they'd come back and kill us all.
I went outside. The guy was still sitting there in the passenger seat window down, just enjoying the day.
I went to the payphone and called the police.
They were there in a few minutes and didn't seem to think it was a big deal (since nobody was physically harmed).
That shocked me.
The guy in the passenger seat windows open, sitting a few feet from the front door saw absolutely nothing.
That did not surprise me at all.
Later that day I was afraid. My fear came long after the events had transpired.
I don't know why the danger had passed and I was safe.
I think maybe it's because I would have killed them both if given the opportunity.
That was nearly 3 decades ago. I'm sure the older robber is either dead or long locked up in prison. It wasn't his first rodeo and it would only be a matter of time before someone did what I was going to do.
I'm glad that I don't have to live with it.
With that in mind I'll share one of my more easily explained experiences. While it is largely dissimilar to most of the stories told thus far, the unknown sense that I believe we all have does play a roll in this particular story. I have other, less explainable, experiences as well, but for now I'll leave them for another day. (I have my reasons for that some of which have to do with responses that were less than polite, and extremely judgmental, in light of the fact that the respondents had absolutely no basis for the assumptions (they) made.)
The first 14 years of my life were spent living on a farm; with my remaining childhood years spent living in a very small town still dominated by farming. In fact I still worked on a farm, while living in town, and was every bit the typical farm kid growing up in the mid-west.
In my later twenties I received an ultimatum from the woman I was living with: move, with her, to New Jersey or she'd move without me. Like a fool I chose to move with her; despite the fact that I had no job prospects and knew absolutely nobody in New Jersey.
Luck was on my side though, as my experience in the beverage industry landed a job as the regional manager for a fairly large soft drink manufacturer/distributor. The company had its own proprietary brands, as well as multiple contracted brands (primarily from Caribbean nations) that allowed us to do a very brisk business in the various inner-city areas.
To that point in time I had never been in an inner-city area, let alone spending considerable amounts of time working in such areas.
I was cautious and more than a bit appalled by what I routinely saw while working in those areas, but naive enough to have no fear while working areas that very much reminded me of hell - after it had been through a major bombing campaign.
My company car looked every bit the unmarked police vehicle and I found great amusement in the fact that the locals would frequently take off running, while yelling 5-O, when I pulled up to the corner bodega and got out of my car. Many of my employees thought I was nuts and told me that I had a death wish that I simply had no idea of how many times I was covered by multiple guns aimed my way, while talking business in a bodega that was nothing more than a front for drugs.
I laughed it all off and got used to the sidewalks covered in empty crack-viles, the crunching sound they made as I walked the sidewalks, the people mistaking me for a cop, and the numerous looks of sheer hatred that were frequently tossed my way. I was used to my drivers being paid with nothing but $5 bills (the going price for a vile of crack) and was accustomed to being the only white guy save the occasional cop in the area.
One day I asked one of my employees (he was from one of the areas we sold a lot of soft drinks) why nobody had bothered me, why people ran while yelling 5-O and why so many of the locals seemed to hate my guts. I had thought I was left alone because so many thought I was a cop. I was wrong. My employee explained that they ran, while yelling 5-O because they thought I was a cop and the locals hated me because they thought I was a cop, but being a cop wasn't what had prevented them from harming me. What had kept me from harm was a combination of my size, the fact that I was white and showed no fear making the locals unsure of what I was capable of and that I just looked mean. It also helped that I always wore cowboy boots something not really seen in those areas and that odd quirk, coupled with the rest, made them think I was dangerous.
The truth is that I was naive a country bumpkin out of place and too ignorant to understand how much danger I was in, or why.
The owner of the company asked me to work with the sales people in Brooklyn for several days. I wasn't too worried, at the time anyway, because the NY salespeople all seemed to think the areas in NJ (that I routinely worked in) were much worse than anything they had seen in New York, so I figured it wouldn't be too bad at all.
My salesman parked his car down the street and we walked to a little bodega that was a couple of doors down from the corner. Right in front of the bodega was a car with a man probably in his late 50's just sitting in the passenger seat. The day was beautiful, a warm late spring day, and I figured the guy was just enjoying the weather while the driver ran errands. Still, something seemed a bit off to me I just couldn't figure it out.
The area was called Bed-Sty not a nice place, but it didn't seem as bad as other areas I had been to. Besides, I was with my salesman this time, so it wasn't just some white guy out and about on his own.
We were nearly done with our sales call, up near the counter finalizing the last few details on the order.
The front door opened and I nearly laughed out loud.
There was a young boy probably 14 or so standing there wearing a ski-mask and holding, what I thought was, a toy gun that was pointed directly at me. He was scared. I don't know how I knew that, but I instinctively knew he was absolutely terrified. I'd say he was 15 feet from me and I don't think anyone else noticed him (two customers, the owner, or my salesman).
Suddenly the door opened again and in stepped another guy wearing a ski-mask. He too held a gun that was pointed directly at me. This one was older; probably in his late teens or early twenties and he wasn't scared at all.
He had done this before. I knew that instantly, but I can't say why I knew that. It was just obvious.
His gun was definitely real. I could plainly see the gaping hole and his finger tight on the trigger. I knew he intended to shoot me and probably everyone else.
The older guy walked up to me and put the barrel of his gun right on my temple, then told me to stop looking looking at them and to get down of the ground.
He asked me if I was a cop.
I told him that I wasn't.
He asked again, several times.
I kept telling him I wasn't.
He then told his partner to go through my pockets. I was face-down on the floor. The younger guy held his gun to the back of my head and began reaching in my left front pocket. He found nothing and began reaching in my left front pocket again.
The older guy asked me where my money was and if I had a gun.
I told him my money was in my right front pocket and that I did not have a gun
The younger guy went through my left front pocket again finding nothing.
The older guy asked in a more menacing tone (where is your money?)
I told him my other right front pocket.
The younger guy finally searched the right-front pocket and found my money. He took my money and was told to search the other people.
The older guy stood near my head and I assume he had his gun pointed at me, as he seemed very concerned with me.
Once the younger guy was done taking money from the others, the older guy told him to take the money from the register.
The older guy had me stand up an face away from him. His gun was pressed into the back of my head and he told the others to stay as they were. He then told me to walk slowly to the back room as he followed with the gun pressed into the back of my head.
I knew he was planning to kill me I could feel it in every fiber of my being.
The older robber wasn't scared, his gun didn't shake in the slightest. I got the picture that he was enjoying himself bossing a much stronger and much bigger man around.
I told myself that the pain would be immense and that I'd likely lose my sight immediately. I pictured his exact location in my mind and steadied myself to grab his throat so as to crush his windpipe and take him with me.
I felt no fear none whatsoever. There was some anger I'm sure, but the overwhelming emotion running through me was determination take him with me. I knew I'd have a second, maybe two, to lock my hand on his throat and crush it with all my might then it would be over and my pain would be gone.
I was in the back room; alone with the older robber and his gun was pressed tightly against the back of my head. I don't know how long it was like that; just him and I waiting for that moment when everything will change. It seemed like a long time, but it probably wasn't.
My thoughts were more clear than they've ever been. I could hear everything the ticking of some clock, his breathing, the traffic outside. I could feel the blood pumping through my body, my muscles tensing for action.
I heard a woman sobbing softly, then steps coming nearer to the back room
The younger kid's voice told the others to get inside the back room and the older guy moved his gun away from my head. I saw him grab the phone cord and slash down with his gun in an effort to break the cord. He did this several times without success.
I know then that we were going to live.
I offered to break the phone cord for him, so they'd leave before they changed their minds again. I grabbed the cord and easily broke it with my hands I saw the look of surprise in the older guy's eyes and then he left, telling us not to come out until they were gone.
The woman was crying hard as she begged me, in broken English, not to leave the backroom. She was afraid that they'd come back and kill us all.
I went outside. The guy was still sitting there in the passenger seat window down, just enjoying the day.
I went to the payphone and called the police.
They were there in a few minutes and didn't seem to think it was a big deal (since nobody was physically harmed).
That shocked me.
The guy in the passenger seat windows open, sitting a few feet from the front door saw absolutely nothing.
That did not surprise me at all.
Later that day I was afraid. My fear came long after the events had transpired.
I don't know why the danger had passed and I was safe.
I think maybe it's because I would have killed them both if given the opportunity.
That was nearly 3 decades ago. I'm sure the older robber is either dead or long locked up in prison. It wasn't his first rodeo and it would only be a matter of time before someone did what I was going to do.
I'm glad that I don't have to live with it.