Mike you have my support and I'll send smoke for you as well as remember you in the Sweatlodge along with the rest I say special prayers for.
There were some alcoholics in my family and being ndn it would've been easy for me to succumb too as well.
I'm so very thankful that SomeThing has been watching over me for as long as I've lived even in spite of my paths to self destruction.
And like some of the others have said, "If you need to talk just email me." I'll get back to you as soon as humanly possible.
Over the years being immersed in the ndn culture and spirituality certain things have come to my mind.
One I've mentioned before and I'm sure will mention again.
It is so very simple but yet so very profound. Every time I need to make a major decision or think I really want to do something and especially something I really know I shouldn't do I ask myself,
"What are you willing to give up to get what you want?"
Those twelve little words have kept me from making some very serious mistakes.
You might find they will/can help you as well Mike.
Sure am glad you got your house, wife, and most importantly your way of life back. Now all you have to do is keep improving it.
With some of the stress gone things may be easier now.
Like everyone else I'm really pulling for you!!!!
Any kind of addictive behavior is damned hard to give up!!!!
Make us all Proud!