I did not expect this from my forum friends. I've been....incompentent. I was unable to provide the first line of defense, the thing that allows us to move on and make friends, discover science, raise children. I could not protect myself and in a forum of weapons experts told them so. What I found instead has overwhelmed me with emotion. Perhaps it's the head injury, yeah....that must be it.
You all have given me the substance I desperately needed. Even friends in town I have not spoken of this to- I've seen some turn their heads away. I don't even know if I can trust people I formerly thought were sterling.
About Evil, you are so right. We can guess which action will anger it and provoke even more evil, and this goes on and on until you are mad with worry. I told the police the truth. It leaves me a little foolish but not responsible for having my head against the floor with someone trying to smash my brains in. The police will hear other spins. They may even shrug this whole thing off- I don't know. I'm not gonna counter 'spin' or bullshit. And if my neighbor goes to jail- so be it. I didn't send him there. I told the truth. He sent his own damn self there.
Lord, how many bad guys, rapists and what all after you put up a defense or tell the truth will then say: "NOW, You're really gonna get it!!"
Evil will give it to you whether you stand or run. That is what evil is.
I will protect my familiy with my life. I hold close to my heart what kind and wise words have been said to me here.
I believe you. It is not just a computer screen. I believe you.
munk
I'm not playing the game of the lost 16 years anymore either. I'm here now, I'm back, and I'm in gear Rusty.